Posted in Life on May 30th, 2007 No Comments »
I knew at some point the reality of what has happened would kick in but I guess I was quite happy fooling myself I was ok. Since going back to work it has been really hard. I think probably because when I was last at work I was pregnant and now it’s just not fair. [...]
Posted in Life on May 28th, 2007 No Comments »
I have been testing myself this weekend to see if I am ready to go back to work. My birthday was quite a depressing day and I wanted to be sure it wasn’t the start of something more. I went out on Saturday on my own for the first time in 2 weeks. After I [...]
Posted in Life on May 25th, 2007 No Comments »
When I was younger I used to listen to music all the time and different songs represented different times in my life. I hadn’t done this for ages until December 13th last year and this is the song that reminds me of how I felt then:
We’ll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don’t need
Anything
Or anyone
If I [...]
Posted in Life on May 25th, 2007 No Comments »
I have been thinking about a poem my brother wrote for me on the 10th February 1997 today this is it:
“Killing Time”
When weary from work
I shall not want rest
Against all the odds
I’ll still do my best
When finished the run
I will run some more
When tired of flight
These wings will still soar
When others fall down
I will proudly [...]
Posted in Life on May 24th, 2007 No Comments »
Well that’s another year gone. In some ways a lot has happened this year and in others it’s been a long year with not alot achieved. Since my birthday last year I have lost 4 babies. Started my Diploma in Metallurgy and passed my first 2 assignments. Keith and I plod along as usual I [...]
Posted in Life on May 19th, 2007 No Comments »
That about sums it up for me right now, tired…. Tired of being on an emotional rollercoaster, tired of not feeling great, tired of being tired. My mother is arriving this evening and I have been trying to get the house sorted out but have little energy and keep feeling light headed. I have had [...]
Posted in Life on May 18th, 2007 No Comments »
I don’t seem to be as upset this time as I was last time. Not sure if this is a good thing or not, maybe it will come out later or maybe I was just more prepared this time. As soon as I knew it was identical twins and should have been triplets I was [...]
Posted in Life on May 16th, 2007 No Comments »
I woke this morning not feeling too bad and thought oh good getting back to normal physically will be able to do some stuff today and get on. Not so, by lunch time I was so tired I had to go to bed. When I woke 3hrs later the cramping had returned and I have [...]
Posted in Life on May 15th, 2007 No Comments »
I think the only thing you can’t do is make sense of it, any of it. It’s like asking why do people go to war? Why is there famine in the world? There are no answers because it could all be stopped with a little cooperation. Why do women loose babies because nature is cruel. [...]
Posted in Life on May 15th, 2007 No Comments »
Thursday evening I passed a small amount of brown blood, which I know doesn’t always mean bad news but it was exactly the same as what happened in December. In December I left it a week before I saw anyone as it wasn’t heavy bleeding and I felt ok. This time I knew that it [...]